Such a long time since my last blog - i know, my bad!
So i have been doing some networking from some old contacts to see if they need any help during the Christmas season - generally Christmas is a great time for people like me who are struggling to get in the field because people take holidays and time off and then it is people like me who takes their job and if they like me then they might hire me for something else.
So far no replies but it is still very early days!
I actually saw another contact of mine at work the other day which was random. He works for one of the free to air channels and i have emailed him quite a few times to keep in touch and have asked him whether anything is going. Of course he managed to dodge the subject which was a shame because i just wanted to hound him for information. I guess though i have become so obsessed with getting a job that i have forgotten about everything else that life has to offer. He asked me what other things i was doing with my life, you know activities etcetera, and i had nothing to say. My mind went completely blank. Getting a career and a full time proper job is all i think about. Everytime i meet or see someone who i think is potential i think of ways to introduce myself or give them my card - every opportunity i get i try and take. Every day i am thinking of new ways and smart ideas. I have become totally obsessed. Oh my god. I need to get life. I even have a dam blog about it! HAHA

And after i finish this blog i am applying for another job! GEES!
I guess that's what you call determination.
I went to see 'The devil wears prada' the other day and by gosh it was good! Once again it made me really motivated. If you havem't seen it - stop what you are doing and drive to the cinemas ASAP! Meryl Streep is fantastic. A little ridiculous that Anne Hathaway can just strut into the most well known magazine and land a job - but hey it's a movie they have to stretch the truth a bit. It also made me re think my options with Sticks and Stones magazine. I emailed the facilitator because there was talk of me getting paid to sit as the editor of the magazine and i thought that was so great because i would finally get a paycheck for something in the field and it would be great experience and great for my resume to actually hold an editor position. And i thought that seeing i was the only person of the originals to stick it out even after all the bitchinbg they did about me i kinda deserved it.

Apparently i don't. I got a reply saying i will not be taking the editorship and i will not be getting paid. I am so so torn. I think i have to draw a line with these people, because i know career wise i won't get anything out of it and i also feel they have really just used me. I am starting to wonder whether i should continue with these people or not? On the one hand yeh it's great that i am getting more stuff published, but on the other hand do i need to draw a line with companies to say there is a point where i will not work for free anymore? Otherwise if i don't will they just keep on using me because they know they can?
The hardest thing is that i have no one experienced in the industry i know i can talk to or ask for advice. Everyone else i trying just as hard as me to lcimb some sort of ladder.
What do you think? Should i stick it out with the magazine or tell them i won't work unless i get some sort of payment? HELP!On another note keep a look out on for the next instalment of my 'Great Expectations' column. Should be up soon.