There are wafts of morbidness in the air tonight as news spread that Steve Irwin died today and after watching a program on him and the late Don Chipp, the founder of the Australian Democrats who passed away in late August, I can't help but start to think of the fragility of life.
In many ways, it makes me so much more determined to get out there and make those dreams happen.Life seems to be such a short journey, and in the blink of an eye a whole era can pass you by. How bittersweet.
I feel like i have wasted the last couple of years of my life. Funny me saying that, as I am only 20! Maybe not wasted, but didn't take the opportunities that were presented to me at certain times. If only i had, maybe i would be in a better position in the journalism field? But you can't 'if only' your life away can you?

On the flip side, i was one of a very few people to have gotten published so many times whilst at college. I think i was actually the only person to be published so regularly. I'm talking weekly here!
The world of journalism is a scary place when you are an 18 year old student, (especially when your first ever interview is with a well known local politician, boy he was arrogant) so i should really give myself a pat on the back for believing in myself and not let them tear me to shreds which can so easily happen in such a competitive world.
Have gone back to college to learn a new computer course called InDesign. My class was not taught that; we were taught Quark, which hardly anyone in the business uses these days, it's old hat!
I have lost a few jobs for that reason, and i hold the college accountable for that. I would have had a job as a sub editor by now if they had been up to date. Thousands upon thousands of money well spent!

To their credit i am back there, free of charge to learn the course, and have sat in on some sub editing courses as well, so i'm happy they didn't just show me the door which i am sure some other insitutions would have.
The lecturer is lovely and always willing to help, and he is so passionate about computers and his work it is endearing. Plus he is always thinking of ways to help me, and i will be forever grateful to him for that. It's so lovely knowing that someone is thinking of ways to help you.
Now that i have this new job it will take me longer to complete the course. I only have the time to go in once a week now, as it was only offered to me twice a week anyway. Must use my time valuably!
I don't want to look back when i am 80 and think, 'i never soared to my true potential' and everytime i see someone elderly i wonder to myself whether they are happy with how their lives panned out and how they feel about being closer to death than most, generally.
Maybe that's the lesson we can take from the fear of death.]: To live life to the full now while you still can.