Frustrated
September 19th 2006 12:54
This last week has been a struggle work wise.
I hate this new job. I haven't felt so isolated in a long time. It's so secular. There is a hierarchy and i came in and spoke my mind and certain people didn't like it and pushed me down because of that. My mind has been battling itself. I came in after a long absence from retail thinking all would be fine and that i would just get on with the job and everyone would be cool but it didn't happen that way.
I'm a pretty outspoken person. If i have something to say i normally say it, whether it is controversial or not. I mean to say i am not a quiet person. In a group of people, i'm one of the ones that is heard.
Here though, it is totally different now; I second guess everything i do, i am always seeking reassurance from someone that i am doing the right thing, i kick myself constantly when i stuff up. It is terrible!
I hate being like this. It's just retail for god sake! I think to myself 'YOU ALL NEED TO GET A LIFE!' and it frustrates me that i let these people get to me so much. The other day i had had such a bad day that i when i finished all i wanted to do was cry. That day had been particularly bad. I would walk out of the storeroom, look back, and see people rolling their eyes at me. I was ignored unless someone needed me to do something. I worked by myself all day, by myself, when everyone else was working together.
Noone seems to want to talk to me.
In a way it just makes me more motivated to get the perfect journalism job, but it saddens me to see just how disrespectful people are to each other. If we all treated each other with respect, than work would be alot more easier and enjoyable. It would be for me anyway.
The quest continues
I hate this new job. I haven't felt so isolated in a long time. It's so secular. There is a hierarchy and i came in and spoke my mind and certain people didn't like it and pushed me down because of that. My mind has been battling itself. I came in after a long absence from retail thinking all would be fine and that i would just get on with the job and everyone would be cool but it didn't happen that way.
I'm a pretty outspoken person. If i have something to say i normally say it, whether it is controversial or not. I mean to say i am not a quiet person. In a group of people, i'm one of the ones that is heard.
Here though, it is totally different now; I second guess everything i do, i am always seeking reassurance from someone that i am doing the right thing, i kick myself constantly when i stuff up. It is terrible!
I hate being like this. It's just retail for god sake! I think to myself 'YOU ALL NEED TO GET A LIFE!' and it frustrates me that i let these people get to me so much. The other day i had had such a bad day that i when i finished all i wanted to do was cry. That day had been particularly bad. I would walk out of the storeroom, look back, and see people rolling their eyes at me. I was ignored unless someone needed me to do something. I worked by myself all day, by myself, when everyone else was working together.
Noone seems to want to talk to me.
In a way it just makes me more motivated to get the perfect journalism job, but it saddens me to see just how disrespectful people are to each other. If we all treated each other with respect, than work would be alot more easier and enjoyable. It would be for me anyway.
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