I have been at this job for a couple of months now - maybe more, and yet i'm still not quite sure whether i feel any better or any worse.

These people are so seriously unpredictable it's not funny. I will walk in one day and everyone will be as nice as cherry pie and i will have a great day. The next day i will walk in and everyone is as cold as ice. And it really pees me off! I'm one of those people where you either like me or you don't and I hate having an in between. If you don't like me that's fine but just don't have anything to do with me and i will do the same. If you like me then that's great! Just don't decide to hate me for one day and bitch about me, then like me again - that ain't right.


I never really realised just how much this job threw me off guard. I hadn't worked in retail in such a long time and I forgot what the politics were like. I am getting much better and i feel like I can stand on my own ground now to a certain degree - but I still don't know everything and it can still be quite frustrating - for both myself and I'm sure it can be frustrating to the manager when i ask what i have to do again. But she also needs to remember that i am not a full timer, just a casual! For example i haven't worked for nearly a week at this job and last week i was just out on the floor anyway - it's quite rare that i do anything else so when someone asks me to do something complicated i just don't know how!

I actually had a chat with the 2IC weeks ago after he cornered me and asked how i was enjoying it, and it was pretty obvious i hated it at the time as i could not hide my disgust at the people working there and i found out that he told this guy who then came up to me and told me i had to hold my own. It's this twisted circle of gossip that just constantly peeves me. Someone gossips or bitches about this person and then some drama happens to this other person and it keeps going round. GET A LIFE PEOPLE! THERE ARE MORE IMPORTANT THINGS TO LIFE!There's this guy who i have decided i really don't like at all and try to ignore him at all times. This guy is one of those full timers whose life is revolved around his job at this store and who comes in on his day off because he 'is bored.' I actually find it quite sad in a way, i wonder if he is lonely or whether he has a life outside work so he can get some fresh perspective, but then again when he does say to me 'I know what goes on in this store before anyone does' and brags about how he knows someone in each section and goes out with them and knows all the gossip as a snide but subtle warning to me it just makes me hate him again.

What has also thrown me off is that they have recently hired a new girl to work in our section, which is great because they definitely need more staff.

So anyway i have only worked with her once but i didn't get very good vibes from her. People were joking that there is this rivalry between us and i hate to admit it but there was. She kinda annoyed me because she was taking my jobs and had been there for only 2 weeks at the time and acted like she was queen bee! And what annoyed me was that she made no effort to introduce herself or really chat with me, which i thought was odd because she is knew and i certainly made the effort to get to know people when i was new! I know i'm sounding like a hypocrit so I am going to give her the benefit of the doubt and be nice to her, after all she is new and i know how hard that can be.

I am getting to the point where i just don't care for it all - i go to work, i do what's needed to be done and then i go home. I don't live in everyone elses pockets, i don't go out with them after work (I'm not invited anyway,) i don't ask for their life story anymore, i just pretty much keep to myself and i honestly think that's how i like to be now. I am happy spending the day putting the stock out and cleaning up the shelves - i don't have anyone to deal with barr myself and even though it is slightly lonely and isolating it is better than working in the backroom where the action is. AVOID AT ALL TIMES!
When will my career become more than DVD's and become something with depth and meaning? Something i am passionate about and love?