The response to Sticks and Stones magazine has been really great. It was weird seeing it on the streets when i passed it the other day; it had been quite a while since something that i had helped create had been available like that.

I got an email from the facilitator telling me about the positive response we had gotten. We even got an email from a politician who totally supported it and gave us the thumbs up! And i thought all politicians were selfish a-holes - maybe i have just been proved wrong!

I feel like this thing was my baby and i am so proud of it. I shows me that i can do whatever i want if i put my mind to it - and yeh i might not be the greatest at whatever i might do - but i still give it a shot! I just want to rub it in everyone's face that has shut the door on me and show them that i can do it!

In terms of my retail job - once again I HATE IT!

So much to say, so little time. So many reasons to dislike it, so little reasons to like.

I just wish these people would get a reality check and realise that it's just retail and the world won't fall apart if they get one order wrong or there is a customer complaint. The problem is that everyone has an opinion on how the store should work, an opinion on every person who works there and everyone sticks their noses into everyone elses business where it isn't needed.

The worst part is, and i don't know whether i have said this already, but what they hey i'll say it again if i have, is that the girlfriend of the boss works at the store too. This woman is the rudest, bossiest, most arrogant piece of work i have ever met. She thinks that she can get away with anything because she is the girlfriend. The sad fact is, she is right. Suffice to say i don't get along with her.


Words really can't express how unhappy i am at this place. I have to stay though because i need the money. I have so many 21st coming up, my sisters wedding, her birthday, my boyfriends birthday, not to mention Christmas! I need the money.

If only i had a great journalism job where i had a regular PAID column like my sex and the city stye one and where i was back doing my party reporting and doing other bits and bobs for television, print or fashion.
I'm not going to give up, but damn it's a hard industry to break.

So i have been doing work with an Aids organisation in Sydney to launch a new magazine called Sticks and Stones magazine. This all started from my work with another popular free gay magazine where i wrote and edited storied for a fold out section which was based on the gay youth of Sydney.

There are wafts of morbidness in the air tonight as news spread that Steve Irwin died today and after watching a program on him and the late Don Chipp, the founder of the Australian Democrats who passed away in late August, I can't help but start to think of the fragility of life.
In many ways, it makes me so much more determined to get out there and make those dreams happen.Life seems to be such a short journey, and in the blink of an eye a whole era can pass you by. How bittersweet.
I feel like i have wasted the last couple of years of my life. Funny me saying that, as I am only 20! Maybe not wasted, but didn't take the opportunities that were presented to me at certain times. If only i had, maybe i would be in a better position in the journalism field? But you can't 'if only' your life away can you?